Regional head to homemaker - decision making!

After many many months of deliberation, guilt and frustration, i have finally resigned from a perfectly good job !

Perfectly good because - Excellent team and mgt, m fast realising it is the best paying job @ my level, none of my competetors get paid half as well ! , gives my ego a boost for the attention and respect i seem to command !

Reasons for resigning - i wake up every mornig with the feeling that i am in the wrong job, for the last quarter i have been coming to the office ONLY because of the salary pull, i don't seem to be learning anything new, no value addition from my boss, work satisfaction is zilch compared to the guilt of leaving children in daycare, life got complicated after binu transferred to nagpur, then naik aaji from the daycare went to usa, mom still not taking the children in full-time, i fell severly sick during march '11 and started thinking if any of this was worth it, i have probably fallen on my head and these are the after effects !!!

finally binu said its ok with him if i choose to stay @ home, and i found it easier to reach a decision !

So, finally stayed back in home town....got a fabulous job...rocking performance for the last two years.

And yet, not staisfied. Keep wondering what I'm doing with my life...kida are growing so fast...remember a time when i used to resolve to complete so many things in the new year...learn so many things varying from painting...to academics...to cooking...to hair cutting...to new languages.

Now I don't even make new resolutions...other than theweight loss related ones...is this what growing up is all about?...is this being mature?...

i was never the type whose life would revolve around work...then why do i let work eat into my personal space...into my time with the children ?... into my rare heart to heart discussions with hubby ?...and more importantly, why don't they mind it ?

so, who was i kidding?.time to myself :) ....dunno when tht will happen...in fact, dunno wht i'll do if tht were to ever happen...my life now seems to revolve around the childrn...husband...job...today, tania has come to stay...so aadi is with her....binu is watching some movie....and rich is playing with an origami set tht madhavi gave her today...

speaking about madhavi....her folks had arranged a get-together today...it was ok...got to meet a lot of her relatives and friends, who i do ot foresee meting again for many moreyears...children enjoyed for a while...and binu was bored by the 3rd minute of reaching there...made me think of how i used to thrive in these kind of gatherings earlier...how priorities change...and my attitude to these has changed big-time too...

so, who was i kidding?.time to myself :) ....dunno when tht will happen...in fact, dunno wht i'll do if tht were to ever happen...my life now seems to revolve around the childrn...

CFP....here i'm

Hubby got a couple of very good job offers in his hand...enough to cover up my annual ctc too....which basically also entails relocating....frankly, i've changed houses 10 times in as many years of married life....am not too keen on uprooting the kids ...they've only just settled into a routine here....but going to kerala may be a good idea 'cause -

• change of markets for me should infuse enthu in my worklife
• which means more satisfied me
• kids learn paternal language
• closer to grand parents on that side
• hopefully better quality of life
• my own house !!! am tired of staying in rented acco for so many yrs now
• we've seen a very good house, and almost finalised the same...its on the riverfront !!!
• i may get a transfer....maybe not....eitherways, except for the money factor, nothing holds me to this job

But hubby himself is not deciding....in terms of , he's stretching the negotiations a little too far i feel...the new co. has promised to payup for his notice period and offered him a good 30% hike in ctc....but our man is also claiming pli loss...i.e. performance linked incentive loss !!

as a result, i have no clue where i'll be this time next mnth...add to tht i've kids' schools to think of...cope with having to say bye to mom ...meet up with my relatives and friends here b4 i go....AND I HAVE TO CLEAR A CHALLENGER CFP IN THE MEANTIME !!! ...GOD BLESS US :-)

heres a start !!!

Well harshu, finally i've got a little time to spare for myself. have been wantiong to set up my blog for a while now. am not sure what i want to put in though. lots on my mind, and am hoping putting it on paper , in this case srceen, would help me to put things in perspective.

one thing that has kept me unsatisfied for a while is that i'm not doing great careerwise. had put in a lot of effort to get a mgt degree from a great insti...am however not going places....one because i'm stuck in pune....cannot think of relocating 'cos of the family....and two...am not putting in much effort in my current profile....

everything has settled in a kaamchalao attitude.....i hat it but don't want to change it too...

wow, thats a pretty dismal way of starting my blog...but its truthfull too....will write again....till then....harsh.